Retrying Old Projects

So I started knitting again....

Wow, what a sad, sad way to begin any post. But it's entirely way too true. I've got proof. The whole point is how I felt - it's accomplishing! And oddly, relaxing.

Hand-knitted headbands and a monogrammed embroidered one

There will be a personal realization at the end of this - I promise.

After being sick for a few days already, all I wanted to do after work on a -11 degree day was get into PJ's and watch Despicable Me 2 in bed. I did that AND managed to be productive, depending on what one considers productive. I knitted two headbands. My first one had turned out a little weird as I experimented with different kitting techniques, and most likely will be redoing it, but no matter because I found it relaxing. It was the most productive, yet unproductive feeling ever. I am obsessed with monograms, so for the second, much better knitted headband, I wanted to monogram with my boyfriend's first initial. Neither he nor I really liked it, so I will be taking that out and redoing that, as well ...another shot at my productive/unproductive feeling.

After finishing the two headbands during the 1.5 hour movie in bed, I couldn't help but feel accomplished and take photos to share with everyone on social media "like how awesome at knitting" I was for a 23-year old. Omygosh, I see my downward spiral into the comfortable homebody that I never was or wanted to be...

#selfie

"Look at me! I knit in bed on Tuesday nights!"

I learned how to knit when I was 14 from my grandmother (who makes the bombest sweaters btw) and made a scarf for an ex when I was 19. I had left my knitting supplies at home, and over this Christmas season at my parents' home, I found them and decided to bring the supplies back to Pitt with me. It's incredible how quickly I remember to cast on, purl, and cast off. It must've been already ingrained in my fingers and that subconscious memory is a pretty cool feeling - like when you remember the lyrics to some random contemporary song from the mid-90's. 

I'm just happy that I've completed a project, in all honesty. If I can be 23 and make awesome accessories with my old-new-found skill, then I've just got one more thing under my belt and can move on to another project in life...like consistently updating this or this blog.

I hope you all just try out that new hobby you've been meaning to pick up. Complete a project with it, and go from there to see whether or not you actually found it to be a good addition to your life.

Resolution & Insight to Speaking

The timing of everything in my life couldn't be so off yet so on; so many not so good things happening yet so many things with common denominators. After New Years, I had only made one resolution. So I was driving in my car post-Sunday yoga and I had thought of my one important resolution... It was really the only thing that mattered to me and any other goals and lists I had made were purely for keeping me busy aiming towards something, knowing it was okay to alter them. I think it's modify my goal halfway through because I, myself, change so why can't my goals?

...then later that day, news came to me that only reinforced that this resolution must be a long-term goal to always be achieved, each and every day of my life.

My grandfather in India had passed away just days before my father was planning to visit. I have never seen my dad so upset in my entire life. And of course, I totally understand why.

Now, you are probably wondering what this resolution/goal/every day challenge is and I want you to prepare for it, and consider it, and make it your own as well....

For every time I feel love, I say I love you.
For every time I say, I love you, I mean it. I mean it with all of my emotion and feeling.
There is active energy when I say it, like I am passing a physical item to the person receiving it.

Too often do we tend to say those three little words out of habit rather than with true feeling. It's a terrible routine we get into. (It's like saying "HelloHowAreYou" as a single word, run-on sentence, truly not thinking what you just asked, to be blunt, in an insincere way.) Since I was little, I felt like I was shorting out on the meaning of I love you by cutting out the "I". It may or may not evoke the same message and emotion to you, but when I do cut out that one-letter word, you know the meaning behind it is only halfway there.

So the next time you say anything, especially a greeting or I love you, say it with sincerity. You will feel how powerful your words truly are and how good you feel after you do.


Peace, love, and happiness and a Happy New Year --